New Day Count and 5-Day Fast April 10, 2010

April 10, 2010 at 5:14 pm | Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

it’s gentleness- and surrender-based

every day narrate what happens

also catalogue every significant life event in manner of self-help book exercise

every day

start days with positivity

life is short

why have I failed so far.

I just want to WANT to fast.

I want to fast 5 days, or 10days

Then I want to do bitter green living fudes only

Thank God I can get on the Internet.

gratitude is a requisite too daily

in the morning

affirming “I really want to fast and be fude-sober”

self-motiv interviewing each morning

honestly and openly questioning whether i choose fasting and sobriety

taking all the time it requires

i hope choosing the sobriety & fasting will just get easier and more automatic

sprout every day

here’s what the day count rules are.

I have to make them really feasible gentle and viable /effective

to be effective they have to be gentle and can’t let me get lonely

tonya has written me

she is intelligent on paper

it is bad to be connected to her though since she is lowclass

I am scared

here are the day count rules.

POLICIES AND DAILY TASKS:

POLICIES:

400 acc max and 2 hours per 100 cals.

(Comment: I have resistance to this rule and fear of it but truly it is big meals that really beat me up and bring me down.  I am fine except if I eat a big meal.  From there it is all being brainfogged and desperate depressed and can’t do anything except stuff myself down with fude. )

(Comment: I have to get honest about how the fude really affects me.  There is something bad going on here.  I

4-hour PAF Rule

DAILY TASKS:

Before eating in a day: sleep 8 1/4 hours, exercise via bodyfeel session, and cold …. bath ? want to require cold swim in ocean.  Take as long as is required to do this comfortably.

Daily sprout

Daily Meditate 5 hours

Daily Lifestory Work

Daily Blog all fude Events

Daily 3 Reachout Calls

Daily 3 Emails 1 to a new person

DAily READ BLOG AND ALL SELFHELP MATERIALS

Daily SELF- MOTIVATIONAL INTERVIEWING (i.e., really honestly ask self what want, what are goals and values, if want to be sober and fast)

Daily Gratitude and Affirmations

Daily

ALL THIS HAS TO BE DONE IN THE MORNING AND BEFORE EATING ANYTHING.

THIS CREATES A POSITIVITY

Note I am not being honest with myself or realistic

Note I am not being gentle with myself.

Note the real purpose is youthing

NOTE I have to make better use of act or principle of surrender

OK FAST UNTIL APRIL 15TH AT LEAST OR BETTER FAST TEN DAYS I.E. UNTIL APRIL 20TH.  April 15th is this Thursday.  April 20th is the Tuesday after that, a week from this Tuesday.

have to complete rules later

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